I was having a lot of trouble trying to figure out what the Lords will is for my life.
I had a lot of questions for him (should I try out for rec team? should i go to mexico in december? what should my spring schedule look like? what should i do after graduation?)
I kept on hearing people say "pray about it" and "be still"
so i did
but still i heard nothing
i sat still but i could only hear myself
I REALLY prayed
I prayed believing that God would answer me
and guess what!
i randomly flipped to a page from one of my devotionals and this is what it said: "he who holds his tongue is wise." Proverbs 10:19. When you pray, my child, do not make it a one-way conversation. Know I am listening, but know also I will respond and will speak to you if you give Me opportunity. Prayer is not only of the lips, but of the ear also, for prayer is of the heart, and the heart that has learned to love has learned to listen more than to speak. When you come to Me in prayer, you ought to come to enjoy Me, not to entertain me.
that sooooooooooo spoke to me
because as of late Ive been trying to hear from Heaven but all I've been doing is talking. so i decided to pray and listen
but still i didn't feel satisfied
so what did i do?
i opened up ANOTHER devotional! lol
before i opened it I prayed, and i asked God to make this message blatantly obvious because i still wasn't getting it
and guess what i randomly flipped to? (I promise that i'm not making this up! this whole story is so like God!)
anyways i flipped to Do you want to know God's will? " Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light for my path" Psalm 119:105 -One of the mysteries of life is the will of God. While it's true we'll never know all of God's will, we can know a lot of what He wants us to do by spending time with Him. So you can say that the only way to really know God's will is to really know God. How do you do that? By reading the bible and by talking to him as often as you can.
So i'm still praying
The only thing i for sure know is that He doesn't want me to join REC team. The Lord has completely taken away that desire.
Now i just need him to answer the following questions: should i go to mexico in december? what should my spring schedule look like? what should i do after graduation?
Sorry, this blog was so long...Bless your soul if ya read the whole thing! =)