You've Captured My Heart

Thank you for proving to me that You are everything that you say you are. Oh my Lord, you heard me begging You for mercy. Thank you so much for not letting this semester go to waste! I love you so much.

This semester was tough.
A million things weighed me down.
I was a mistress
I chased after lovers that didn't satisfy
But You helped me find Micah 7:8: Do not rejoice over me, O my enemy. Though I fall I will rise; Though I dwell in darkness, the LORD is a light for me.
It became my battle cry.
Thank you for the scriptures you have given me to memorize
Thank you for helping me cut through deceptions with the Sword of the Spirit.

I will never stop preaching Your love to myself.

Over and over, day in and day out.....
I will praise you with an upright heart
as I learn your righteous laws.
I will hide your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.
Turn my eyes away from worthless things;
preserve my life according to your word.
Your word is a lamp to my feet
and a light for my path.
Direct my footsteps according to your word;
let no sin rule over me.

You showed me how much you loved me after I begged you for a sign.
You saw me on my knees begging and crying for you to turn to me, begging you to shine your light on me.
Thank you for giving me the affirmation I was searching for.
Thank you for showing me that You love me in such a tangible way.

You are so beautiful.... I am at a loss for words...

I ALWAYS wanna feel like this. I wish I could bottle up everything that I'm feeling and take a swig of it when I'm weary.

One day I will feel like this for all eternity.


I stand amazed in the presence
Of Jesus the Nazarene,
And wonder how He could love me,
A sinner, condemned, unclean.
O how marvelous! O how wonderful!
And my song shall ever be:
O how marvelous! O how wonderful!
Is my Savior's love for me!

Hold My Heart

How long must I pray to You?
How long must I wait for You?
How long until I see Your face shining through?

I'm on my knees, begging You to notice me.
I'm on my knees, Father will you turn to me?

One tear in the dropping rain,
One voice in the sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?

One light, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Won't You come close and hold my heart

I've been so afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye.

But if there's no other way, I'm done asking why.

So many questions without answers, Your promises remain

I can't sleep but I'll take my chances to hear You call my name

Father could You hold my heart?

Psalm 73

I will keep this hidden in my heart so I can remember it when the World tries to pull me in with its affections.

1Surely God is good to Israel,
To those who are pure in heart!
2But as for me, my feet came close to stumbling,
My steps had almost slipped.
3For I was envious of the arrogant
As I saw the prosperity of the wicked.
4For there are no pains in their death,
And their body is fat.
5They are not in trouble as other men,
Nor are they plagued like mankind.
6Therefore pride is their necklace;
The garment of violence covers them.
7Their eye bulges from fatness;
The imaginations of their heart run riot.
8They mock and wickedly speak of oppression;
They speak from on high.
9They have set their mouth against the heavens,
And their tongue parades through the earth.
10Therefore his people return to this place,
And waters of abundance are drunk by them.
11They say, "How does God know?
And is there knowledge with the Most High?"
12Behold, these are the wicked;
And always at ease, they have increased in wealth.
13Surely in vain I have kept my heart pure
And washed my hands in innocence;
14For I have been stricken all day long
And chastened every morning.
15If I had said, "I will speak thus,"
Behold, I would have betrayed the generation of Your children.
16When I pondered to understand this,
It was troublesome in my sight
17Until I came into the sanctuary of God;
Then I perceived their end.
18Surely You set them in slippery places;
You cast them down to destruction.
19How they are destroyed in a moment!
They are utterly swept away by sudden terrors!
20Like a dream when one awakes,
O Lord, when aroused, You will despise their form.
21When my heart was embittered
And I was pierced within,
22Then I was senseless and ignorant;
I was like a beast before You.
23Nevertheless I am continually with You;
You have taken hold of my right hand.
24With Your counsel You will guide me,
And afterward receive me to glory.
25Whom have I in heaven but You?
And besides You, I desire nothing on earth.
26My flesh and my heart may fail,
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
27For, behold, those who are far from You will perish;
You have destroyed all those who are unfaithful to You.
28But as for me, the nearness of God is my good;
I have made the Lord GOD my refuge,
That I may tell of all Your works.

Revelation

I'm reading an amazing book called Crazy Love. It's very convicting. I only had a chance to read the first chapter, but I already think it's amazing. I mean really...What do I know about our Lord's Holiness? I know I'm supposed to love Him and set him apart, but why don't I act like it? WHY must I consistently remind myself to have a quiet time or to set aside time to worship him? Why is it not something that I look forward to like watching the latest episode of my favorite tv show? The Lord is better than that! I mean just read Revelation 4:8! The Seraphim angels have to shield their eyes, and their feet from the glory of the Lord! That is the SAME God that I claim to love so why don't I show him the same reverance? I am so ashamed of myself! I wonder if I even act like a Christian. Would people know that I'm a Christian without me telling them?? I need to get my priorities straight. I need Christ to be the center of my life. I'm through with being disrespectful towards my King. From now on I will try my hardest to be a living sacrifice. I only hope that my life reflects that.


I read some scripture in Revelation in a new and awesome way, but I didn't completely understand it. I looked up several translations to see if that would help but I'm still not completely sure I understand. I put in bold and italicized the verses that I haven't quite grasped.

8 And the four living creatures, each of them with six wings, are full of eyes all round and within, and day and night they never cease to sing, "Holy, holy, holy, is the Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come!" 9 And whenever the living creatures give glory and honor and thanks to him who is seated on the throne, who lives for ever and ever, 10 the twenty-four elders fall down before him who is seated on the throne and worship him who lives for ever and ever; they cast their crowns before the throne, singing, 11 "Worthy art thou, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for thou didst create all things, and by thy will they existed and were created." (Rev. 4:8-11)

Does this mean that whenever I give glory, honor and thanks to the Lord there are 24 elders who cast their crowns and also praise the Lord? It seems to me that if this is the case then they will ALWAYS be doing that because I would like to think that at any given moment their is always someone giving praise to the Lord.

11 Then I looked, and I heard around the throne and the living creatures and the elders the voice of many angels, numbering myriads of myriads and thousands of thousands, 12 saying with a loud voice, "Worthy is the Lamb who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and might and honor and glory and blessing!"

Is this referring to the future? Did he see the day when we will all surround the throne of God and praise him?

Hopefully, I'll be able to share the other things that this book is teaching me. I'll leave you with the lyrics of 2 songs that I heard during my worship time that convicted me as well. I confess my sins of making the Lord to0 small and thinking that i had him all figured out! I was so wrong.

Beg- Shane and Shane

Here I am
One more day of not
Loving Him the way He asks
In fact my heart is singing praises to the things
that make me feel alright

So I’m sinking fast like a stone heart should
And on the way down
I’ve done what I could
To try and try to turn this stone to flesh

I’m haunted by my God
Who has the right to ask me
What by the nature of my rebellion
I cannot give.

So I beg for you to move
I beg for you to move
I beg for you to break through

So here I am
Got my deeds for the day
All my cute little words about
How I am saved
Am I saved?

Could I love you with my mouth like a church kid should
At the end of the day
My words get burned as wood
Oh, but I was good.

I’m haunted by my God
Who has the right to ask me
What by the nature of my rebellion
I cannot give.

These songs are noise
In your ears
A clanging drum
You want my love

What do I know of Holy? Addison Road


I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?


What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life it's name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?

Paranoid?

By nature I've always been a scaredey (sp) cat. I actually think it's helped me more than hurt me haha....but anyways that's not really the point of this post.

On Thanksgiving Day, I drove to Angleton to visit my grandparents and my aunts, and because I’m currently taking an upper level Texas History course I thought it would be cool to visit the grave of Stephen F. Austin (the Father of Texas). I finally convinced some people to go with me at around 6pm which I now regret! While we were at the cemetery we took some pictures and I kid you not when I say there were some weird images in the photos when we looked at them later that evening. You can see the face of a man in a window AND there is person right next to my Aunt Rosa which was NOT there when I took the photo! Even typing this out is really creeping me out =/

That same night my 9 year old cousin Gigi confided in me and told me that she sees a ghost named Jew and he makes her do things that she doesn’t want to do. It really scared me and I asked her if I could pray for her cuz I really felt like I needed to and then I asked her if she knew about Jesus. She said that she did and when she talked to Jew about Jesus the ghost would leave her alone. The only useful advice that I could think of telling her was to rebuke him in the name of Jesus and she told me that she would. I talked to her Mom about the conversation I had with Gigi and she said that she’s unsure if this is really happening or if she’s making it up but doors open and close on their own in her house and other weird paranormal type stuff.

Ever since Thanksgiving I’ve been really scared to go to bed. I guess it would be safe to say that I’ve been afraid of the dark! However, when I do get scared I pray and I do rebuke the fear. I also remembered that scripture can be used as a sword so I’ve been trying to memorize:

You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. 1 John 4:4

"If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." John 8:31-32

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39

So really the point of this blog is do you think I’m just being a scardey cat and none of this is real or can this be from the evil one?

I’m not sure what I can do for Gigi except pray….

Repentant

2 days have gone by and sometimes I still feel bad that McCain did not win the election, but I know I need to get over it.

I'm ashamed of my lack of faith. The Lord is still in control. Maybe I'm upset because for the first time ever, the candidate I voted for lost. Actually, typing that has made me realize that I'm upset because Obama is Pro-Choice, He supports stem cell research (which I feel is selfish because we're just trying to find ways to keep us alive longer), and I feel our healthcare system will suffer with his healthcare plans. I could go on and on but I won't because this too shall pass.

I'm sorry for the negative things I have said/thought, I'm sorry for not trusting the Lord's soverignty in all this. I believe that the God who helped me cope w/my dad's cancer is the same God who is in control today. I believe that the God who healed my broken heart and has helped me overcome many obstacles is the same today as he was back then. My God is unchanging, he is in control and he never lets go. I choose to put my hope in him alone.

My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus’ blood and righteousness.
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
But wholly trust in Jesus’ Name.

On Christ the solid Rock I stand,
All other ground is sinking sand;
All other ground is sinking sand.

When darkness seems to hide His face,
I rest on His unchanging grace.
In every high and stormy gale,
My anchor holds within the veil.

His oath, His covenant, His blood,
Support me in the whelming flood.
When all around my soul gives way,
He then is all my Hope and Stay.

When He shall come with trumpet sound,
Oh may I then in Him be found.
Dressed in His righteousness alone,
Faultless to stand before the throne.

The Lord's Will

I was having a lot of trouble trying to figure out what the Lords will is for my life.

I had a lot of questions for him (should I try out for rec team? should i go to mexico in december? what should my spring schedule look like? what should i do after graduation?)

I kept on hearing people say "pray about it" and "be still"

so i did

but still i heard nothing

i sat still but i could only hear myself

Finally

I REALLY prayed

I prayed believing that God would answer me

and guess what!

HE DID

i randomly flipped to a page from one of my devotionals and this is what it said: "he who holds his tongue is wise." Proverbs 10:19. When you pray, my child, do not make it a one-way conversation. Know I am listening, but know also I will respond and will speak to you if you give Me opportunity. Prayer is not only of the lips, but of the ear also, for prayer is of the heart, and the heart that has learned to love has learned to listen more than to speak. When you come to Me in prayer, you ought to come to enjoy Me, not to entertain me.

that sooooooooooo spoke to me

because as of late Ive been trying to hear from Heaven but all I've been doing is talking. so i decided to pray and listen

but still i didn't feel satisfied

so what did i do?

i opened up ANOTHER devotional! lol

before i opened it I prayed, and i asked God to make this message blatantly obvious because i still wasn't getting it

and guess what i randomly flipped to? (I promise that i'm not making this up! this whole story is so like God!)

anyways i flipped to Do you want to know God's will? " Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light for my path" Psalm 119:105 -One of the mysteries of life is the will of God. While it's true we'll never know all of God's will, we can know a lot of what He wants us to do by spending time with Him. So you can say that the only way to really know God's will is to really know God. How do you do that? By reading the bible and by talking to him as often as you can.

=)

So i'm still praying

The only thing i for sure know is that He doesn't want me to join REC team. The Lord has completely taken away that desire.

Now i just need him to answer the following questions: should i go to mexico in december? what should my spring schedule look like? what should i do after graduation?

Sorry, this blog was so long...Bless your soul if ya read the whole thing! =)

exodus

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.


HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Above All- Rebecca St. James (hahaha!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Shine Your Light on Us- Robbie Seay Band

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Can't Hide From Your Love- Aaron Shust

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Rejoice- Chris Tomlin

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Here I am to Worship- Jeremy Camp

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hear Our Song- Jadon Lavik

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
We won't be quiet! David Crowder Band

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
The Answer- Shane and Shane (Awesome!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Secret Kingdom- Newsboys

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR WEDDING?
Life Itself- Aaron Shust

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Never Give up on the good times- Spice Girls! Haha

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Check you for ticks- Brad Paisley

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Your Song- Moulin Rouge

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Our God Reigns- Brandon Heath

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Here is our King- David Crowder Band

WHAT DOES YOUR WORK/SCHOOL EXPERIENCE ENTAIL?
Love is here- Tenth Avenue North

WHAT IS YOUR ROMANTIC SIDE LIKE?
In Christ Alone- Bethany Dillon & Matt Hammitt

WHAT DOES THE FUTURE HOLD FOR YOU?
Come, Now is the time to Worship- Brian Doerkson

WHAT WILL YOU REPOST THIS AS?
Exodus- Bethany Dillon

A theory on time travel.....

Could they be right?!?!?!

Sounds pretty convincing....

Run in such a way as to win the prize....

God is trying to tell me something, but I'm not sure what it is....That scripture keeps on coming up in various ways so I'm thinking that the Lord is trying to tell me to run in such a way as to win the prize. But really, what does that mean?? First lemme tell you about the different ways it has come and you tell me if it's just coincidences....

1. I was jamming to my Aaron Shust CD and "Like I never felt before" came on and when I sung "run in such a way as to win the prize" I felt like I was singing those words for the first time. I felt like I was supposed to pay attn to that part of the song.....
2. I went to convocation and the sermon was on 1 Cor 9:25-27 which contains "run in such a way as to win"
3. It is the motto of my school this year
4. I was doing a devotional during my quiet time and that was the verse that was used for reflection

So do you agree with me? lol

I wish I knew exactly how I'm supposed to interpret it but It's all kinda hazy. I'm not exactly one of those intellectual types. All I can do is pray that the Lord will give me insight on how I should apply this to my life.

If you randomly come across this blog I would greatly appreciate it if you joined me in prayer!! =)

Wow

So I just read the following marriage proposal and it made me cry. I'm not kidding....

I pulled out a scrap book that I had made, chronologically walking her through our entire
relationship. We slowly went through all hundred pictures or so, stopping only 
to dance and once to wash her feet. As the last page turned,
I filled a glass of wine and then read to her Jesus' words to his disciples.
"this is my covenant with you, take and drink."
Because, if you know anything about marriage proposals in Jesus' time, then
you'd know that this is exactly how a young suitor would propose to his bride-to-be.
He'd fill a cup with wine, take a drink, and then offer his cup and covenant to his beloved.
And so that it is what I did.
And now, by the grace of God, 
I'm going to love one woman for the rest of my life.
For the rest of my human experience, until death do us part,
I will love her, as I have been loved.
"as Christ loved the church and gave Himself up for her."
That is what I intend to do anyway,
what I hope to do.
To love her as Christ has loved me.
Overwhelmingly,
Sacrificially,
Purely.  

That is so beautiful. 

I pray that one day I will find a man like that 

Values in Worship

Christ Centred

Holy Spirit Led

Real

Intimate

Sensitive

Transforming

Period.

Who am I?

Sometimes this world makes it easy to forget who you are. Luckily, the Lord has already told me who I am. =)

I am reconciled to God - 2 Cor 5:18

I'm a child of God - He is my Father - 1 Jn 3:1,2

I am a saint - Eph 1:1; 1 Cor 1:2; Phil 1:1

I am Christ's friend - Jn 15:15

I am a fellow citizen in God's kingdom - Eph 2:19

I am born of God - 1 Jn 4:7

I have been brought near to Christ - Eph 2:13

I have been adopted by God - Rom 8:15

I have direct access to God - Eph 2:18

I am a citizen of heaven - Phil 3:20

I am an heir of God - Rom 8:17

I've been rescued from Satan's domain - Col 1:13

I am a joint heir with Christ - Rom 8:17; Gal 4:7

I am hidden with Christ in God - Col 3:3

I am blessed with every spiritual blessing - Eph 1:3

I am chosen of God - holy, beloved - Col 3:12

I am a child of promise - Rom 9:8; Gal 3:14

I am a child of light, not darkness - 1 Thess 5:5

I've been given great promises - 2 Pet 1:4

I am a partaker of Christ - Heb 3:14

I'm redeemed and forgiven - Eph 1:6-8

I'm to be a stranger to this world - 1 Pet 2:11

I've been justified - made righteous - Rom 5:1

I'm an enemy of the devil - 1 Pet 5:8

I have eternal life - Jn 5:24

I died w/Christ to the power of sin - Rom 6:1-6

I am free from condemnation - Rom 8:1

I am to be salt on the earth - Mt 5:13

I have received the Spirit of God -1 Cor 2:12

I am to be light in the world - Mt 5:14

I have been given the mind of Christ - 1 Cor 2:16

I'm chosen and appointed to bear fruit - Jn 15:16

I have been crucified with Christ - Gal 2:20

I am called to do the works of Christ - Jn 14:12

I am a new creation - 2 Cor 5:17

I am to do what Christ commanded His disciples - Mt 28:20

I have been made alive with Christ - Eph 2:5

I have been given spiritual authority - Lk 10:19

I am God's workmanship - Eph 2:10

I am connected to the true vine - Jn 15:1,5

I am a partaker of a heavenly calling - Heb 3:1

I'm a willing slave of righeousness - Rom 6:18,22

I am a temple of God - 1 Cor 3:16; 6:19

I am one spirit with the Lord - 1 Cor 6:17

I am a member of Christ's body - 1 Cor 12:27

Thank you so much Lord for Romans 5:8 "But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."

Drained

As an RA at a Christian University i'm seen as sort of a role model. I am supposed to represent Christ to the residents, and help them with their spiritual needs. I have come across many oppurtunities to discuss the Gospel with students that I would never of had the chance to if I wasn't their RA. I have also been able to share how faithful the Lord has been in my life.

However, I'm experiencing a problem. I find myself pouring into others, but I don't have anyone pouring into me, and that is draining. I long to have a mentor. I charge myself through prayer and quiet times, but I feel like I need encouragement from a more mature Christian woman. I have tried looking in my church, but I haven't been very successful, and my mother is not really an option.

If you come across this blog I ask you to please join me in prayer, as I look for someone more mature in their faith to encourage me in my walk with the Lord!

The beauty of good times

A couple of weeks ago I was looking at Aaron Shust's tour schedule and noticed he was gonna stop by Dallas. I really wanted to go because the last time he was near me (in San Antonio) I didn't go because it was on a Sunday and I had classes the next day, but I ended up really regretting it.

So, after prayer I decided to invite 2 of my friends and my sis to go to Dallas with me because I didn't want to go on my own. I had to pray about it because I wanted to make sure that I was not going to idolize the musicians that were going to be there. I wanted to make sure my intentions were pure and I was going for a worship experience.

Amazingly, my sis and my friend Sarah decided to join me. It was really cool because they're usually not into that sorta thing. Laura couldn't go because she had to work =(. A week later I also found out that Faith was gonna be there! That was so freaking awesome because I hadn't seen her in 3 years because she moved to Denton after she received her degree.

Anyways, We got there on Friday and I got to meet David Crowder!! This is the second time I've been led in worship by him and it was amazing. He sang my favorite song, "O Praise Him," and it was just an overall awesome experience.

Then Saturday we woke up bright and early and went to Dealey Plaza to see where JFK was assassinated, and then headed back to Celebrate Freedom.

I was so0o00o looking forward to Saturday because Aaron Shust was going to perform. I've only seen him once and he was opening up for Michael W. Smith.

I headed towards the autograph booth around 3:30 because I knew Aaron was going to be signing around 4:30, and I really wanted to meet him. As I was waiting in line I see him walk up to the tent and I scream "oh my gosh that's Aaron Shust!!!!" I run up to the table and see him getting prepared for an interview. I took like a million pictures, and I felt like a paparazzi person! I was a little embarrassed afterwards, but oh well! lol.

After the interview he headed towards the table where I was at and he talked to me!!! I couldn't believe it. He was also nice enough to take a picture with me.

I was so excited about FINALLY meeting him. The music/lyrics that the Lord has blessed him with has really ministered to me in a way that other Christian artists don't quite capture. I mean I really enjoy David Crowder Band and Chris Tomlin, but if Aaron wasn't around I'm not quite sure how my worship time would look like.

After I got his autograph I headed to the stadium so I could get a good seat and I saw Jaci V performing which was really neat. During her performance they interrupted it a lil and told us to brace ourselves for a lil rain which I kind of welcomed because it was scorching outside!!! After Jaci performed Meredith took the stage for one song and I could see Aaron and Duffy on stage setting up all the equipment and doing a sound check.

I WAS GETTING SOOOO EXCITED! FINALLY, I WOULD SEE AARON PERFORM AFTER ALMOST ONE YEAR.

After Meredith sang she said "help me welcome Aaron Shust," and my friends and I screamed!!!! But he didn't come out.... Instead, a person from KLTY came out and said "the show has been suspended. take shelter in your cars!"

I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT.

I thought it was a joke. Seriously

I was thinking please, just let him sing ONE song =(

but an hour later we found out that the show was canceled

I was bummed at first, but I got over it fairly quickly because I freaking met Aaron. He actually knows I exist! lol. Hopefully, I'll see him perform when he tours for his new album. I would seriously do it all over again.

A stay at the Holiday Inn $90
Gas from Houston to Dallas $150
Merchandise $25
Food $30
Meeting Aaron Shust and being led in worship by DCB- PRICELESS
Road tripping with friends- Priceless

An amazing night of worship!

I saw Smitty for the second time ever on Friday. He was doing a live recording in Houston and the concert was free. That was really cool because I would of paid to see him, so, I kinda felt like I saved some money. Friday was so amazing. I really felt the prescence of God there. Another cool tidbit is he ran right in front of me! That's the closest I've ever been to him. lol.

In between one of his songs he said something really awesome that has stayed with me all weekend. Jesus intercedes for us, he dances over us, he sings over us.

Can you just imagine that??

In the words of Michael W. Smith: Our God is an awesome God!

Praise the Lord for such an amazing night. I hope to have another powerful worship experience this weekend at Celebrate Freedom in Dallas.

I love because He first loved me!

I can actually say that for the first time ever I am CONTENT with my life.

I dunno what the future holds, but I do know this: The Lord has plans for me to prosper, and He has plans to give me hope and a future.

Thank you for healing me;
I was dying beneath my shame
But You brought me to life again, and I will sing:
Thank you for freeing me
I was dead to the truth of You,
But my healing was in Your wounds, and now I sing:
Thank you for healing me.


I often wonder if i'll find the qualities I long for in a husband. I think I will since the Lord promised that he would delight me with the desires of my heart.

Just in case you're out there hubby, this is what I'm looking for: Christian, stronger in his walk with the Lord then I am so he can lead me, musically inclined, taller than 5'4, college education or higher

that's all for now!!

Grateful

I was thinking about how I can see the hand of God in everything that has happened to me. None of my experiences have been a waste! When I catch myself worrying I try to remember:

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34

I'm glad my Father has left me with little nuggets of wisdom to get me trough this daily struggle that we call life.

~Mayra~

p.s. I saw "lady for a day" yesterday and it was so funny and heart warming! Frank Capra is such an awesome director. I recommend you see it!!

TGIF

I told my parents I wanted to get baptized, and it didn't go over well. I wish my parents could support me in my decision to be a Baptist.....
They think I'm joining a cult. *sigh* I can only pray that God will soften their hearts.
Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me. Psalm 27:10

Amazing Grace

Hola Friends! I have some very exciting news, but first I should give a lil background....
I dated a guy for almost 5 years, and the relationship was really bad because we were unequally yoked. After we broke up a year and a half ago I tried to maintain a friendship with him, but it was difficult because he would only pull me down. I finally decided to give it over to God and of course he helped me overcome.
The last time I talked to my ex was about 2 months ago. I called _____ to tell him that I was no longer going to persue a friendship with him because everytime I talked to him I felt miserable. He seemed perfectly fine with severing ties which kinda sealed the deal for me. Anywayz, last week we were gonna have an end of the quarter bible study party, but I decided I was not gonna attend cuz I was kinda worn out from finals......But, an hour before the bible study party my ex called me! I have never EVER been able to reject his phone calls before EXCEPT for this time! God finally helped me get rid of all that baggage I was carrying around. I raced to bible study so I wouldnt be tempted to call him back and the most appropriate song came on the radio: Amazing Grace (Chris Tomlin version). By the time the song got to "my chains are gone, I've been set free" i was bawling. I love how the Lord is alwayz so faithful to me. I finally feel content in the Lord. I'm glad i was finally put to the test because I would alwayz thank God for helping me control the urge to call ____ or look at his myspace, but the enemy would alwayz whisper in my ear that I had been able to resist the temptation because ____ didn't try to contact me. I was finally able to prove that God helped me overcome! I can't express in words the Joy i feel in my heart.....

~Mayra~

An Alternative

I hate how Myspace seems to eat up alot of my time. Insead of doing a survey I could be working out, praying, cleaning studying, or something else. One of the reasons I created a myspace account was so I could keep in touch with my friends. However, I can still keep in touch with them through this blog. We'll see how faithful I am with my updates!

Have you ever thought about the moon? It's just a ROCK that reflects light from the Sun. Well, I wanna be like the moon! I want to reflects God's light. I want to accomplish good works so the people can praise my God. They will know that the works are not from me but from my God.

Leap Day!

Only in Houston, Texas can you be stuck in 3 p.m traffic because of the trail riders that start the rodeo every year. I was stuck in that traffic! It was kinda nice....lol.

I'm gonna go to the Rodeo 4 times this year. I'm REALLY excited. It's part of a Texas tradition. You can't just skip it!!

I've kinda been worried because my school didn't give me all the financial aid that i need for my senior year. I guess all I can do is pray and hope the $3,000 turns up from somewhere.

Isn't music amazing? It's so weird how much it can affect your emotions. I also think it's kinda strange how you can click with musicians. You don't know them personally, but you feel like you do.....For instance, I really feel like I know John mayer, Aaron Shust, Jack Johnson, Chris Tomlin, Coldplay, Matt Redman and David Crwowder. I alwayz listen to every track on their cds no matter what they come up with. I really feel like I could be friends with everyone of them, yet they don't even know I exist. I wonder why I don't have any women on my list??? I really like Christy Nockels, but I don't like every Watermark song. I'm also really starting to like Kristian Stanfill......

I have a huge headache that won't go away =(

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Twin

I have a twwwwwwin!Not really, but it's kinda like we're twins. This girl lives in Houston like me and has my exact first and last name. That's really weird becasue I hardly ever meet other Mayra's and i have NEVER met anyone with my last name that isn't related to me. Another thing we have in common is our age. I know all of this because I found her on facebook a couple of years ago and we talked. Well, today I got a phone call from her mother becasue she thought i was her daughter. I was really confused, and trying to explain to her that I wan't her daughter even though I had the exact name as her daughter...lol. Finally she figured out that she dialed the wrong number. APPARENTLY her daughter and I almost have the exact same number. The only difference is that my number ends with a 3 and the other Mayra's number ends with a 2. How freaky is that????

~Mayra~